Stand back and look upon me
I am a new woman
Just like each new wave crashing upon the sea
I shall crash into life renewed
For there are so many things I can foresee
That many need shown

You think that I am but a lamb
But I have never been stronger
My mind creates pearls just like a clam
both white and dark pearls
Because I am not perfect, madame
I am a good and evil combined

I could beat down your ignorant words
Like the wall that they are
My strength will likely get on your nerves
and you won't understand why
But I am more free than you, just like a bird
Open your mind and be free too

I will not bully you into believing as I do
Merely show you the world
Beyond one life I have broken through
To a higher understanding
We are all one but have no collective view
If only everyone could see

If we didn't need to force others to our will
Wouldn't the world be peaceful?
Live together in our collective journeys uphill
without climbing over each other
Breathing in the bliss and seduction of goodwill
The true meaning of happiness.

Imagine a world where there is no power
no money
no expectations
Perhaps there could be equality
generosity
freedom

Soft breezes whisper through an open window,
Pictures tell silent stories in my mind,
In a place where dreams are made and all my thoughts are left behind.

My eyes gaze out towards the far distance,
Another moment in time slips quietly away,
I wait for he who will come for me and stay for forever and a day.

I wonder what sort of person he will be,
Will he call my name in his dreams?
At night I create stunning scenes to be torn away by the sun it seems.

I will give him all the love he needs,
With every breath my longing gets stronger,
The clock ticks in the quivering silence, the seconds stretching longer.

The corners of my mouth turn up in a smile,
The anticipation makes my heart beat fast,
No thoughts are needed to picture this moment; he has heard me at last.


Scarlett Van Dijk

When I remember my past I pity
Thinking of the little girl who didn't notice a thing
until it was too late,
Thinking of the young woman who lost her inner voice
and started to hate.

Did you ever think about the scars you would leave
when your eyes sliced like knives?
Those silent stares.
You placed a muzzle on what was me
Yet your pain I did bare.

Numb, the light left my eyes but you didn’t see.
My thoughts forever locked inside
to escape the scrutiny,
Waiting for the day I would break free
of that bond's agony.

When I finally took that step you smiled
believing I couldn't walk too far with those shackles.
I clenched my fists,
Continuing my journey to freedom,
crossing off my lists.

My smile is no longer fake but true.
What I do is no longer for you.
I speak my mind
And friends I find
Who accept me for who I am.
I am no longer your lamb.

Are you shocked that I don't run back to you
after all that you did?
It is your turn to make a journey
to discover what it means to be a friend.


- Scarlett Van Dijk

Wisps of smoke reach above trees
My breath forming clouds which dissipate as I run
shouts reach my ears on a cold breeze
when only minutes ago they were yells of fun

Reaching the edge I skid to a halt
The chimes of bells ringing their awful toll
In the village a horse bolts
the snow engulfs a child's precious doll

Starting forward I slip down the slope
Heath causing me to stumble with its woody tangle
With every moment I lose more hope
As the flaming horror before me blazes at every angle

The first rays of dawn are hidden
by the events of this morning's devastating brutality
Tears come despite being forbidden
as the culprits run, screaming with crazed hilarity

That disease of the mind kills
so when the fire recedes, flames of my anger do not
The silent graves make hills
the thought of forgiveness turns my rushing blood hot

Alone my vengeful thoughts entwine
Stripping my soul bare I turn my back on virtue
to walk a razor thin line
and become a being of shadow with justice to do

When my job is done I will return
To the charred earth where only my feet raise dust
Waiting to feel the burn
and burrow my sins with their pain and old trust


- Scarlett Van Dijk

When you whisper in my ear I tremble for your touch.
Hold me close and kiss me softly, I can’t think straight.
You have given me so much, hope I can repay all you have done,
You are always on my mind.

When I’m scared I know where to turn.
Your are my guardian angel who shines with blinding light,
looking down on me with eyes that leave me stunned.
You have saved me so many times.

The need gets stronger every second I’m with you.
You’re like a drug to me, I can’t pull away.
Angel what have you done to draw me so deep? I am yours.
I need you now, I give you all of me.

When you're gone I feel lost and I hide inside.
The pain is ripping but inside my head I can sooth my heart,
and in my dreams I reach for you, I hope you do the same.
Just come back to me my angel.

When our lips touch a ripple runs down my spine,
tender messages tease limbs; you must know what you do to me.
My heart flutters and love pours though me.
Spread your wings and come back home to me angel.

Before I sleep I pretend your arms are tight around me.
My heart skips when I imagine your face,
your breath upon my neck and the warmth you spread.
I don’t want you to leave again.

I spend every day waiting for you,
waiting for the hours to pass before I see you again.
I wonder what you do, where your go, how you're going.
I know I can’t live without you.

I am not perfect, angel, but I am yours.
Will you take me with you when you fly?
I can’t survive the loneliness again sweet light.
So, my angel, please…love me.

- Scarlett Van Dijk

Sometimes the air stifles, smothers – hard to breath.
Sometimes the muffling, tangle of my mind deafens.
Sometimes when I think the strangling, putrid thoughts won’t be unwound
I am proved wrong.

Since seeing the deep, seeping stare of nervous admiration.
Since the phone call that sapped my energy, shooed my thoughts away.
Since the snapping, electric touch which sent my heart to flutter
I have been proved wrong.

Time has passed yet my heart still calls out unconstrained.
Time keeps the sharp, fervent  breath of anticipation lasting.
Time never slows to let me rejoice of the little things –
   The touch of velvet comfort
   The musky, lulling smell
   The protecting embrace
   or the voice who proves me wrong

Even though I get broken I know I will be fixed.
If I let the stinging tears run they will be swept aside.
Now when I look into your cordial, overwhelming eyes
I know you proved me wrong.

I know you proved me wrong.

-Scarlett Van Dijk

Pure and beautiful is the angel
Skin as soft as silk
eyes as bright as the sun
Hair flowing like a river
Eternal life, strength and grace
The image of dreams one might say
but in every heart lives an angel
An inner light trying to shine
and that angel is you

- Scarlett Van Dijk

Her lips move
but there is no sound

Her eyes shine
but there is no light

Her hands freeze
but there is no chill

Her fingers coil
but there's no handhold


He gives voice
but the words are lost

He lights fire
but it turns to embers

He pulls close
but is pushed away

He reaches out
but does not find


No more sound
No more sight
No more warmth
No more touch
Nothing

Out of sync


- Scarlett Van Dijk